I wish you knew
How it felt
To run my hands through your hair
Grab your black tshirt around your waist
The way your arms felt I’ve always missed
Gripping them in my hands when you pushed into me
You showed me the first glimpse of feeling free
I was addicted
I knew I could love
But I did it too hard
We were so young
How can it feel this deep
I wish you knew
How it felt
When you needed to be free
I don’t blame you
But it hurt
You didn’t have to lie
You didn’t have to be mean
You didn’t have to pursue such a rejection
But I get it
It was too strong
I just wish you knew how unnecessary it felt
How much it stung
I crumbled and you didn’t
That’s what hurt the worst
This was so long ago it feels silly to talk this way
But I want you to know I’m happy
And I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for you
I feel free
I hope you do to
But one day just maybe
You’ll stay out of my dreams
And see me
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